1. Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are 2. B.O.B. feat. Bruno Mars - Nothing On You 3. Gnarls Barkley - Crazy 4. Britney Spears - Hit Me, Baby, One More Time 5. Jason Derulo - In My Head 6. Justin Timberlake - My Love 7. Lady Gaga - Just Dance 8. Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love 9. Ne-Yo - So Sick 10. Michael Jackson - Black Or White 11. Snoop Dogg - Sexual Eruption 12. Survivor - Eye Of The Tiger 13. Taylor Swift - Fifteen 14. Taylor Swift - Fearless 15. Savage Garden - The Animal Song 16. Snoop Dogg feat. Justin Timberlake - Signs
“Io odio le coppie che rompere solo a causa del lavoro. Sono stato con questo, e ora la maggior parte dei miei amici stanno vivendo la stessa cosa. La vita è così dannatamente ingiusto. E perché queste coppie dovrebbero essere così vigliacchi? Perché le persone dovrebbero essere colpite da tali cose temporaneo rispetto a quelle meraviglioso? Lo odio. Lo sto odiando”—Sana hindi mangyari sa iba pa
“I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can’t breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It’s like I’m in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer….”—Love the Way You LIE
If I could, you know I would If I could, I would LET IT GO Surrender Desperation Dislocation Separation Condemnation Revelation In temptation Isolation Desolation Let it go And so to fade away Let it go And so to fade away I’m wide awake I’m wide awake I’m not sleeping
What is it like to be far away from the place you’ve lived in since you were born?
Oh, the mere fact of thinking about it makes me damn sick. I wanted it badly, and now what the eff happened? A part of me wants to leave this place and start a new life, beginning; it’s like a rebirth…my total "extravaganza escape" from all the hurt I’ve been through the past few months. I gotta admit, life here in Pinas has been so cruel, unfair, unjust, and playful for me….
I’ve been to a point when I just wanted to be invisible..wanted to fully soak myself in boiling water and start to burn my skin until it gets numb.
How weird right? And even if people would just say that, “Hey, it’s all about LOVE…and surely you’d get over with it”…
Oh yes, it’s all about freaking L-O-V-E.
That word I wouldn’t want to utter, feel, think, talk about…not now; not when I am totally at the state of loathing it. I am loathing it badly. People around me would never notice how rude I am dealing life right now. It’s definitely not the ordinary or usual type of attack I am doing. It’s not me anymore; it’s way beyond my imagination and capacity.
I am a great actor. I really am. I’ve always wanted to be one, and I’ve always been a fan of stage and movie actors…but I’ve always been a big fan of myself as well— a real drama actor in a reality drama. I can absolutely award myself of “The Great Pretender” or whatever it is that you want to give me credit of.
Now even though a part of me would want to go, my entire being wants to stay. You know why? Simply because of the people I love- my friends and family. It’s cliche, damn I know it is! But heck, that’s completely the reason behind. Plus yeah, I hope and want to spend some more time with someone so dear and close to my heart. Oh it’s true…even if soon (I’m not so sure when, and not sure if it’s gonna happen—let’s assume then) I’d be thousands of miles away, I’d be leaving my heart here. Somewhere inside somebody’s.
And can you ever imagine how it’d be sooo painful? Knowing that you’d be far away from the one you truly love; knowing he’s a plane not a bus away; knowing he’s how many timezones away; knowing you can’t be there to make him feel how much you care and love him; knowing you can’t see the most wonderful memories he could have….even your friends, it would be the same. I know I’d have friends there too, but come to think of this:
Will they surpass the satisfaction I’m getting whenever I am with my friends who are just a text or call away? Will they?
I won’t close my doors yet, but…will somebody ever make me feel completely happy- pure bliss even if I know I left my heart here? Will I ever be completely happy????I don’t even know if I could ever give that certain word I wouldn’t want to utter, feel, think, and talk about to somebody soon. I don’t think so.
I don’t know, but it seems like it will never be the same again. It will never be that “ok” again.
but why do I still keep on thinking about that?
The science behind it…the Psych behind my failure acts and failure plans. I thought I was doing the right thing, but it wasn’t…but what’s right then? I know I’m a freaking weirdo, and so you are…and now, can’t we ever meet halfway?
I am stuck up. I am stagnant.
How could I ever get rid of those wonderful thoughts? How could I ever forget those ugly memories? Every time…everywhere…they’re there; they’re haunting me.Even during my unconscious life,they’re present. I have a great trust about dreams; this particular one is the most vivid of all I’ve ever dreamed of but I couldn’t figure out the message behind it.
It’s freaking me out. I want to escape; a magical, pivotal, centrifugal exit.
This is quite unsinkable, but it has to. It has to conquer my uncanny mind and prick it so hard to realize that “Hey dumb ass, this is what you call reality and this is human nature”. F*ck that reality! and eff “escape”. I don’t believe that such escape could fully get rid of your problems.
It will never. Even if you’d puff million sticks, weeds, or gulp some gasoline-like alcohol drinks, it’s there…and no matter how you try to forget and escape…it’d be there. Unless you FACE IT!And eff, even if I would want to face it, but it doesn’t want to…what’s the purpose then of trying?
Oh, I’m just waiting. Waiting…waiting forevermore. Waiting for that day that everything will be in order. Whatever happened is meant to happen…and whatever it is that will happen, is written on that yellow/white/blue particles you see in the sky at night. It will; trust me…
I don’t want to leave anytime soon, but FUTURE here I come :( NO!
Sitting beside the window pane; a view from the 18th and I can see the smooth traffic along Ayala Ave. Intoxicated look in front; around everyone’s gone quiet.some are English-infected individuals.haha..and as I look down- what an enchanting feeling of serenity within a concrete jungle…It’s relaxing to just listen to the sound waves while working :P
“Now I’m thinking…”Why I took up AS instead of a business course when I was in college?”
First day at TR; Equities all around. OMG. I don’t know what to freaking do.and the boss is in front of me..:(((
*I can do this! AJA!”—