The hastening drops and fog all around; I wish to run and soak myself in everlasting love. I kinda loathed it, but the inevitable feeling is rushing through my sensory nerves to my pumping muscle. Now there’s no denying, it’s STILL FLOATING WITHIN ME; I hope not to drown.
I couldn’t resist staring at you. You’re so close yet in reality you are freaking far away. But it didn’t matter. All that I knew then was that I was actually talking right in front of you and damn…I wanted to tell you this :
"I’ve missed you."
But I couldn’t. Those silly jokes and stuffs you were telling me were actually correct, but I just don’t have the courage to admit it yet. Not now, not anytime soon.
You come in the most unexpected days and moments. I’ve been wanting to not associate you to someone special, but perhaps there are just things that are beyond our control—I am happy though to keep you with me, and I’ve always believed that you’re someone to keep forever.
We’ve done this several times, but yesterday felt different. I didn’t know but it was extra-special.
The 25th of March you, me, and the mock “us”.
Only if this is true then dear, I’d be in heaven. Indeed, to not label a relationship is something more real than an out loud screaming official one which sometimes turns into something surreal—bizarre.
Maybe just maybe one day I’d find one and you’d find yours—a love to share and hand to hold. It probably you and me or we, finding other people. But I guess it wouldn’t be that detrimental to put on some HOPE and WHAT IFs about a possible us, don’t you think?
It maybe an “official us” but let’s stick to what we have right now. I may not have all the courage to say those three words yet, but you know that actions speak louder than words, right? =)
Thank God for this sem!Well despite the sleepless nights, I enjoyed the past few months at school though.Had so much fun with some peeps from grad school and undergrad too earlier tonight..Hmmm such a long humid and then rainy day today! :)) This calls for a parttteyy!